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我们又吵架了

wen — Thu, 14 Jan 2010 13:40:09 +0000

我真不明白为什么我们永远都是为了些小事吵架。他总是会说些让我心里难受得话，而我又总是沉不住气，会发脾气。因为我发脾气，他也生气，结果我们就不欢而散。

是不是因为我们根本就不适合呢？

我其实很快就会气消，我是吃软不吃硬，只要他肯道歉，我就没事了。偏偏他是一个比较小气的人，需要很多时间才能放开，就算我道歉他还是会生闷气。

其实我是不是爱嘉不够深？我从前不会对文祥发脾气，为什么现在我不能忍？1月5日我还是想起了他。尽管已经过了4年，原来就算我多么开心，我还是会记起他，怀念他。尽管他做了伤害我的事，但我和他的过去还是那么的刻骨铭心。他，还会想我吗？我知道是不会的，他是一个拿得起放得下的人，他决定了放弃我，就不会把我放在心上。

而嘉呢？我在他心中又是什么样的地位？其实我知道他是爱我的，尽管他不会表达，也不会做任何浪漫的事来哄我开心，但他对我无微不至，只要是我想要的，他都会尽量为我做。为什么我不能全心全意地爱他？我为什么不能多迁就他，不要那么无理取闹？

我应该怎么办？嘉，我不知道。我是不是应该放弃你，让你寻找自己的幸福？

i like this.

wen — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 05:52:39 +0000

When I think about you not being here with me (I actually think about you all the time), it makes me sick to my stomach. I miss you so much it physically hurts. Whenever I talk about you, I feel a knot in my throat. I can’t picture myself with anyone but you. And time goes by and does it’s crazy thing but, how I feel doesn’t change, it never goes away, even when I hate you for leaving me, for not loving me enough, it doesn’t weather. How I cried myself to sleep wishing I could feel you close to me one more time. How I wish I could just stop feeling because it hurts so much. I want to move on, I want to walk away and just remember you every now and then as someone I was fond of. I’m tired and frustrated because I don’t understand you, I don’t know what it is that you want or feel… sometimes I think you don’t even know that yourself. I can go and conquer the world and make my wildest dreams come true but, in the end you are not here. I feel as if I lost a part of me, you took and I want it back. I play it cool, I cry when no one sees me, I dream of you. I’m in hell.

唱歌的人歌聲不好，不過歌詞我很喜歡，很有意義

wen — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 01:49:46 +0000

得到這麼多　怎麼感覺未快樂
走得這麼近　是否真正沒隔膜
開心這麼多　為何活著如幻覺
爛醉擁抱哼句歌　然後又　又怎麼

前行萬里捨不了當初　你早掉低我　但沒有別離過
旁人帶著艷羨　來說實在期望想做我
但我一顆心　卻永遠反鎖

人來人離這麼多　從來無人進入心窩
永遠記住前事我也覺得折磨　如早已預知的後果
如何愛清楚　日落提示分針下的歲月如梭
若果繼續這樣傻　我都失笑感觸我
看著時日過　我還在等什麼

Protected: have we ever only been friends?

wen — Sat, 04 Jul 2009 15:07:30 +0000

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上吐下泻

wen — Sun, 03 May 2009 19:09:40 +0000

i’ve never gotten so trashed before and the hangover is really bad. but i think it was for a good cause. now that i’m sober, i feel so much better.

i think i’ve made my decision. let’s hope it’s a good one.

wen — Sun, 03 May 2009 08:27:27 +0000

我以后都不要再谈恋爱了。

2009年3月21日-阴天

wen — Sat, 21 Mar 2009 10:52:55 +0000

今天我忽然又想起了他，原来不知不觉我们已经分开快要3年了。其实已经是好久好久以前的事，是过去，是回忆。

现在的我觉得很幸福，很温馨，原来时间真的会冲淡一切。当时的感觉好像世界末日，我以为我再也不会快乐，不会幸福，真傻。

希望他也觉得幸福。

最近很喜欢这首歌，让我感触良多：https://download.yousendit.com/TTZrYlJabWdUWUEwTVE9PQ

為什麼脆弱時候想你更多

wen — Wed, 04 Mar 2009 02:41:10 +0000

突然發現站了好久

不知道要往哪走還不想回家的我　再多人陪只會更寂寞

許多話題關於我　就連我也有聽過

我的快樂要被認可　委屈卻沒有人訴說

夜把心　洋蔥般剝落拿掉防衛剩下什麼為什麼脆弱時候想你更多

如果你也聽說　有沒有想過我

像普通　舊朋友　還是你　依然會心疼我

好多好多的話想對你說　懸著一顆心沒著落要怎麼負荷

捨不得又無可奈何

如果你也聽說　會不會相信我對流言　會附和

還是你　知道我還是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了許多

懂我的人就你一個

想到你想起我　胸口依然溫熱

許多話題關於我　就連我也有聽過

我想我寧可都沉默　解釋反而顯得做作

Happy girls forever

wen — Sat, 17 Jan 2009 03:17:26 +0000

Yesterday was the ROM of someone very close to my heart. We’d known each other since young, been close girlfriends since JC. And yesterday, in the presence of the people she loves and who loves her as well, she committed herself for life to the person she loves the most in the world. The vows they made touched my heart, and I am unbelievably happy for her. She looked so blessed and so content, I know her decision is right. Through all these years, she’s always tried her best to be there for me, through smses, meetups, phonecalls and stayovers. And even though people change, circumstances change, in my heart we’ll always be the two happy girls who walked and walked from Holland to Orchard and more.

Ting, I heart you, and may you live in a house full of sunshine, with hearts full of cheer, and your love grow deeper each day of the year.

Christmas

wen — Sun, 28 Dec 2008 17:30:20 +0000

He gave me a present for Christmas!

I totally did not expect it, so it was a pleasant surprise and I love love love it haha. He’s not the kind of guy who usually buys presents. Apparently, I’m probably about the only person who’s received stuff from him haha. But the last few times, he just asked me what I wanted and bought me what I asked for. So this time, I felt touched that he went shopping on his own and bought me a gift. I guess it’s not a very romantic gift, it’s a 100% cashmere shawl (black ). But it suits me, and it’s sweet cos he knows I’m always cold in the malls and cinemas and he bought it for me to keep me warm. Honestly, I’ve always been a bit dubious about cashmere before cos it looks so thin and I failed to see how it could keep anyone warm. But after testing it, I see why cashmere is so expensive… it’s thin but it really keeps me warm and it feels nice on the skin. And whenever I use it, I feel loved

My christmas gift(s) to myself are so numerous, I can’t count hahaha. I bought a pair of heels from Enzo Angiolini (Nine West) that I could not resist. But it was on discount and I had the 5% Isetan credit card discount, so I guess it’s quite worth it. Maybe I shall wear it to Ting’s ROM or wedding dinner hehehe. Ummm I also bought some Dermalogica stuff from strawberrynet and they gave me a free eyeshadow pan haha. And today, I ordered quite a bit of eyeshadow, blush, bronzer samples and a cream eraser from Pure Luxe. Plus, about 2 weeks ago, I spent about $400 at the Mango sale. I am so not spending anymore money

I’m actually really happy right now. The boy makes me happy and he dotes on me. It’s really nice to have someone treat me with such care and I feel touched by all his little actions. Insisting on sending me home every single time, carrying my heavy stuff without me having to ask, buying me soup and making sure that I eat properly when I’m sick, the list goes on. It’s such a 180 degrees difference from the ex and I feel thankful that he was around during my bleakest times. I don’t think I could’ve pulled through as easily without him. I really do love him an awful lot