Yes or No?

He asked me for real on Sunday. “Do you think we can be a couple?”

Haha I told him I can’t answer him yet, I need to think about it. And he said I can take as long as I want. And I found out that he really meant it that time when he sort of asked and I sort of rejected. Oops. Now I feel guilty for hurting his feelings.

I was crying while I was blurting out all my fears and stuff. Then he said he understood and hugged me.

I’ve been sitting on this problem since Sunday and I still have no answer. Shit.

How How How!

Hmmm

I think he kinda asked me. And I think I kinda rejected him.

And I have no fucking idea why I did that considering I’ve been waiting for him to ask me.

Maybe I’m just not ready. But then again, neither did he really ask straight out either.

But now I’m all agog and confused. Le sigh.